Sunday, March 18, 2012

I'm doing something a little crazy...

I've debated so many times whether I should blog about this or not. I knew once I did, there would be no going back. Once I hit publish, everyone will know what I've been trying to do and everyone will know if I don't do what I said I was going to do.

So here goes:

On May 19, 2012 I will be competing in the Bikini Division of a Fitness show. This one to be exact:

I have had this little tug in my heart wanting to do this for over a year, I would say. I never really thought I could do it, but I kept thinking and thinking about it and and before I knew it I was training for it. With help from an amazing trainer/coach (You rock, Claire!) I have been preparing since January and I am now less than 9 weeks out. 

Some of you may be wondering why I would subject myself to weeks and weeks of eating plain chicken and salad and spending hours in the gym. The answer is actually pretty darn simple.

I want to show myself that I can.

For my entire life, I have just gone along, never really giving anything my all. I want to prove to myself that I am capable of this and anything else I put my mind to.

There is one other reason: In doing this crazy thing, I truly hope that I can inspire someone else to pursue their own goals. Maybe it's a fitness related goal, or maybe not. But I hope by working this hard that someone will maybe see what I'm doing and want to work this hard on their own goal. 

I am just a normal girl. I don't have crazy awesome genetics, I was not born with natural athletic abilities. I have to start from square one, just like everyone else. I have to get up each day with determination and discipline to do this. And it's making me realize how strong I am and how little credit I have been giving myself all along. To be completely honest, every single day that I wake up and stick to my diet, complete my workouts on top of normal every day life (ie working two jobs, being a wife, sister, daughter, friend, and just trying to be a good human being) I feel different. I feel like I love myself a little bit more every day. I think this is because I'm giving myself a life that I always wanted. To be a strong, fit, happy girl.

So that is what I'm doing. I'm so loving this journey and I can't wait to see what happens!

Thanks for reading.



  1. To be fair, you were born with a crazy awesome tan (which I'm jealous of, by the way).

    1. Lol your too funny! Yeah I do have the skin tone that's one thing! :-)